June 10: Stupid In love

So its been a week since my last post and nothing has changed.I really thought if i stopped talking about it, and slow down the worrying, it all would come together but it didnt. I have spent the last week trying my hardest to make him understand and i get absolutely nothing. Stupid in Love? yes i am, especially to think the more i tried the harder it would be for him to resist. This may work with some men, but i should have considered the source in this situation. I love him but that love has given birth to hate within this last week because he just dosent care about my feelings at all.So here i am today gonna let go of any hope and faith i had for us. I cant keep abusing myself with thoughts of the future, and memories. Its crazy because i consitantly pray and ask God to remove me from this situation or make it better, and nothing has happened at all. That in itself is frustrating, especially when you feel you are giving it your all. Aside from this pathetic ass relationship i have yet to find a job. I apply almost everyday and absolutely nothing has turned out from it sooooo, i guess this is just one of those phases in my life where everything falls apart to come back together at some point. I just really wish it would all come together soon because i seriously am almost filled to compacity with disappointment