Goodbye Game

Im afraid to let go of him, but today i am loosening my grip and i have to set him free. The worst thought is starting over with someone new that i don't know or trust. This is a really crazy but i gotta let him go and do him, and i guess i have to heal my wounds on my own. I believe the worst part is over and now its time to get better and be ok with James again. For almost two years i have been a part of him, i have to now stand on my own two feet and start again. What hurts the most is that for now i still love him. I really wish that i didn't cause no part of me wants to anymore, and i don't feel like this kind of love is good for me anymore. I have yet to meet someone as amazing as he was but im pretty sure there will be another who captivates me in an entirely different way. This emotion that we call love can literally almost destroy you if you let it. I cant continue to let it manipulate my happiness i have to break free. Because now its becoming a constraint in my life, and its been one too many times i've come close to insanity behind it. I can't anymore, im only 21 but i seriously don't have anything left to give another being at this point in my life. I have given sooooo much, all because love mesmerizes me. I don't know when i will ever fall in love again, or if it is comming soon but i honestly don't care. I care too much as it is, i have to turn my back on love for a while, because at some point it always does to me. Goodbye love, im checking out for a while. See you later, maybe?