July 2: Trust Issues

The last few days have been really interesting. Though we are not back together, things somehow got better within the matter of a few days. We saw each other and things pretty much took a life of there own from there. He still loves me, which is shocking because i honestly didnt think that he did. Our conversation, our moment, that night was refreshing. I would like to question what we are doing at this pont, or what his feelings now are, however im kind of ok not completely knowing. Part of me is just trusting things to wrk out by the graces of God, but another part of me is really skeptical of him and his thoughts. Though im kind of on the edge with my thoughts i do want to give whatever may be happening with us a chance to naturally present itself to me, without me being impatient,or pushy. I have always been a firm believer in whats meant to be will be. And so far nothing with our relationship has ever been forced so i refuse to start rushing and forcing things now.The next few weeks will be interesting, and as always im praying for the best. I find it funny that alot of times we get so wrapped up in leading our own lives we turn a blind eye to those around us. I have been so consumed in my own heartbreak for the past month i failed to see my parents having problems within their own marriagew, and now they may be staring separation in the face. I never thought at the age of 21 i would have to see my parents doa split but i stand corrected. I pray that theymake it through this, because if you can't save a relationship after 25 years, what hope is there for anyone?