May 31: JE Heartbreak

In a relationship when is enough, enough. After how long do you pack up your life and move the fuck on from the disappointments, tolerance, and disrespect. I ask this question because it has become clear to me that i struggle doing exactly that. I never know when to leave a bad situation and find myself all over again. Its either that or i have a fear of starting all over, so i stay with what i know no matter how bad it hurts. I have no final answer right now, but i do know i am killing myself for a guy that no longer wants to love me the way i need to be loved. Im not gonna go into the deep pitty party i could have but the feeling of being in love alone really sucks. I know he is seeing someone else, but i keep on pushing, and jumping up and down to be noticed. I know i love him, but is love really that deep? Showing complete disregard to my pride i continuously try to win him over when he dosent deserve any of my effort, nor does he put forth anymore. I really have been disturbed by our relationship lately and it makes me extremely sad. I keep praying, hoping, and waiting for him to have this epiphany and show me he wants me to stay but i am seriously torturing myself. I wish that i could make him feel my love, just understand what you mean to me. But thats even more effort that i no longer have, im tired of trying give what i dont have. I have to let him go but i seriously have no idea how